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GET OUT!!!

GET OUT!!!

Get out and run for the hills! Every man woman and child, save yourselves from the mental and soon to follow physical torture of the, dare I say? Drum roll please........9-5! Ewww just the very thought of the typical everyday grind of the traffic filled commute, coworkers that swear they are team players but showcase otherwise, human resources department that lacks in actual resources, and a boss who knows that you know that he knows your totally deserving of a raise but withholds with no explanation and keeps you on edge. Hate is such a strong word, and like the word love, hate is frequently used loosely and without regard to its pure definition. You can rest assure and believe when I say, I HATE my job! I hate my job without a doubt in mind, without hesitation, without having to think twice about it.

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I have given much thought to ensure my true feelings towards this subject, and in conclusion I can say with all honesty that hate is very much a dominant presence. When it comes to me and jobs its somewhat of a abusive relationship. I literally come out in the end physically drained and left with the feeling that all was taken from me and nothing ever given. Is it seriously too much to be employed and happy all at the same time? It seems, well at least to me that I have to exchange occupation for happiness, but how would that work? Having no cash-flow and being broke is no walk at the beach, it sucks. We all heard it before, money doesn't buy happiness and I undoubtedly agree. Money cant buy total happiness, maybe some form of happiness but that usually doesn't last very long. Many have this negative misconception of money, and I once thought in a similar way not very long ago. Money is the root of all evil, money changes people for the worse, more money more problems, and the list goes on. Yes, money can do all those wicked things but it also can do a whole lot of wonderful things as well. Besides all the material things money can buy, more importantly it can offer a sense of security which in a way can equal happiness. So how can one accumulate income without sacrificing his mind time and body? The answer might not be as clear as day and varies depending on the person and situation but definitely exist, its possible! How do I know this? Because I seen people do it, and I myself am dedicated to be among those living that type of life.

Reverting back to my current situation, I hate my job. I hate that I hate my job, I hate that sometimes I feel that I cant do better than where I'm currently stationed but no moves are being made. I also hate that my thoughts rarely evolve into action even though I desperately want them to. What in the world is holding me back? why do I stay at a job I despise? Well, I'm getting a consistent check every other week, and leaving my current job does not guarantee me another job let alone a better one. You know what? These are simply all excuses, excuses of insecurity and fear. Fear can be destroyed as easily as it was created, all that is needed is the correct tools. The mind is the ultimate tool but most of us have no idea how to use it to our advantage. I believe we are lazy in nature until we put our minds to work on a consistent routine. We must set goals and build a path in order to reach those goals. While treading the path to our goals one must keep in mind to continuously move forward and never backward. Its always easier said than done when it comes to these types of situations which ultimately comes down to simply making a choice. Complaining is a choice (which I do on a consistent basis every single time I clock in to work) just as making moves towards change is a choice. The wise words of my little green friend comes to mind, "do or do not." Its really that simple (yes it really is), you either do or you do not. There is only so much planning you can do, only so much time you have, eventually some type of action must take place whether small or large in order for change to occur.

I literally countdown the hours l have left before entering this black hole I call a job. How sad is it that even on my days off I'm thinking about work? Its my freaking day off and all I can wonder is how quick my time off will come to an abrupt end and Ill be thrown back into the abyss! This is no way of living, its occupational imprisonment. Designated lunch time (I'm hungry now dammit), accumulation of PTO hours and approval from boss before vacation (much needed t.l.c immediately please). Everything is on their terms and not my own. That might work for a teenager working during the summer for some fun cash but I'm a grown man; a grown man with a beard and a nice collection of grey hairs. I'm way past that mediocre minimum wage stage, I deserve more. I learned along the way that things usually never change unless the person changes first. Who's to blame but the one in the mirror? Its much easier to point fingers and whine about how others are doing better or how no one is lending me a hand, but how far will that get ya?

When I say GET OUT, I really mean it. Is a check really worth your sanity? Its not the most practical thing to just up and leave a job as you please, especially if finances is a significant issue but there are ways to lighten the load. The human mind is a magnificent thing, and anticipation can do wonders for mind and body. Just think about how you feel when you know your going to Hawaii on vacation in a week. Whatever happens between that week even if bad (with some exceptions of course) does not really affect your mood because you know good times are ahead. Compare that to having nothing to look forward to, there is a huge difference in psyche. With little to nothing to look forward to you become more and more of a robot repeating the same exhausting, devastating, spirit murdering actions day in and day out. The point is to have something in the works even though your not exactly where you want to be at the moment. Slow money is better than no money, and baby steps are better than no steps at all. You will feel better as the days pass if your working at something with a passion day in and day out that with time will blossom into something wonderful in the future. Don't dare underestimate hope cause without it not much would be possible. Having hope will keep your spirits up while your mind and body team up to continue the grind in completing task and achieving goals.

No time like the present, correct? As I type this I remind myself of what I'm saying applies not only to those who read this, but most importantly myself. Waiting for the right moment will have you waiting forever. Whats the difference between starting today and tomorrow? Your alive and able today compared to the uncertainty of the unknown future. The human race might have been killed off long ago if it wasn't for our progressive attitudes and constant innovative minds. We are meant to move, meant to be in motion and evolve. Most living things die without constant interaction or development. My gosh we are fascinating creatures, such a unique creation with so much potential. We can speak, hear, feel, walk, run, laugh, cry, invent, adapt and the list goes on. What other type of living organism can do what we can? None, we are one of a kind and its time to start acting like it! You heard it all before, its about the journey and not so much the destination even though the destination is the focus. The journey teaches and enriches while the destination rewards and replenishes. Continuous hunger even when full will result in uninterrupted self development and avoid a stagnant lifestyle. Lets remember to motivate one another and find ways to motivate ourselves. Don't be afraid to "take chances, make mistakes and get messy."

 

 

Timing is everything

Timing is everything